"There are no perfect men in this world, only perfect intentions"
I have never considered myself to be a perfectionist, but recently it has occurred to me that I might actually be one in certain situations. I consider myself a very determined and ambitious person and want to be viewed as such. I had an anxiety attack this week and it wasn't fun, it made me realize that I am way too hard on myself! I don't know when this began but I always strive to do the best that I can with any job I have had, even when it was at Sonic drive-in during high school. I guess my lack of trust in people has rolled over into thinking people might not trust my word either. I am a VERY honest person and really don't know how to be anything but honest, it just doesn't come natural to me to be anything but honest. I know some people feel it is easier to give an excuse that might seem harmless verses just saying I don't really want to or I just can't make it because of this...but it makes me not trust people even more. I like the truth regardless of what it is!!Thanks, bye.
I have never considered myself to be a perfectionist, but recently it has occurred to me that I might actually be one in certain situations. I consider myself a very determined and ambitious person and want to be viewed as such. I had an anxiety attack this week and it wasn't fun, it made me realize that I am way too hard on myself! I don't know when this began but I always strive to do the best that I can with any job I have had, even when it was at Sonic drive-in during high school. I guess my lack of trust in people has rolled over into thinking people might not trust my word either. I am a VERY honest person and really don't know how to be anything but honest, it just doesn't come natural to me to be anything but honest. I know some people feel it is easier to give an excuse that might seem harmless verses just saying I don't really want to or I just can't make it because of this...but it makes me not trust people even more. I like the truth regardless of what it is!!Thanks, bye.
4 comments:
Mikki, I am exactly the same way! I am waaay to hard on myself. Did you look into seeing someone about getting some Xanax yet? It really helped me. Anxiety attacks are NOT fun!
Mikki, I totally agree with you about honesty! I value honesty and genuine-ness in people almost above all else. Sorry to hear about the anxiety...I hope you can find a way to diffuse some of that stress! Maybe we should do some running when I get back! :)
Okay, it took me a little while to realize you were saying "also known as" and not "above knee amputation" in your title (LOL!). Sorry to hear about the anxiety. You know how much of a perfectionist I am, but I have really tried to work on it in the last year. Mike's little engineer saying has helped me a lot..."Better is the enemy of good enough." If you can do something good enough to satisfy the requirements, the customer and it works, then don't stress about making it better! I know you are an honest person and I value that in you. Thank you for being you!
Thank you all for your kind words, I really appreciate it!
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